Yet at the same time many even among the leaders believed in him. But because of the Pharisees they would not openly acknowledge their faith for fear they would be put out of the synagogue; for they loved human praise more than praise from God.
– John 12:42-43
Have you ever found yourself holding back when it comes to your faith? Maybe you’re afraid of how people will react – worried they might think you’re too religious, or that you won’t fit in anymore. I know that feeling. It’s tough when you feel like you might be left out or misunderstood, especially when you’re just trying to do the right thing.
The leaders John describes in this passage were in the same boat. They believed in Jesus, but they kept quiet because they were afraid of losing their place and their reputation. They cared more about what others thought than what God thought. And if I’m being honest, I’ve done the same. It’s easy to seek the approval of people we see every day, to want their praise and affirmation. But deep down, I know that their approval won’t last. It’s here one moment and gone the next.
When I let fear of rejection guide me, I miss out on the freedom that comes from knowing Christ and living for Him alone. There’s a deep sense of peace that comes when I know I’m living out my faith with honest intention, even if it’s hard. And I’m learning that the love and approval I receive from God is so much deeper and greater than the temporary acceptance I might get from others.
Because the truth is that God has called me to be different, to not fit in with the world. That doesn’t mean I’m not to associate with unbelievers or treat them indifferently. But it does mean that my faith in Christ should be far greater than any fear of rejection I might experience. God asks us to live in such a way that our love for Him shines through. And yes, sometimes that means standing out like a sore thumb and being misunderstood. But it’s in those moments of choosing Him over popularity that our faith grows stronger and our relationship with Him deepens.
There is security in knowing that I’m loved by God. And when I remember this, I can move forward in my everyday witness with confidence, knowing that He sees me, knows me, and loves me exactly as I am.
It’s His praise I seek, not man’s.
Former Blackout Artist 